Have you ever screwed up and said the wrong thing? You were hurting so badly inside and so you somehow ended up taking it out on the people that you love the most?
The lamest part of it all, is realizing the second that it comes out, that you didn't mean it. By then it is too late. You have stuck your foot in your mouth and hurt the person that you love. So they leave... and you call and get their answering machine... and have to leave a pathetic sorry excuse for an apology for being such an incredible ass.
Haha ya... can you tell how my night went? I am really struggling today. I am hurting about things that are important, but instead of dealing with them... I lashed out at the people who care about me.
It's very frustrating for me that I'm not able to even resolve this right now, when I know that I am wrong. I want to grovel. I want to beg for forgiveness. Instead I have to understand that I hurt someone, and they have the right to take as much time as they need. I don't deserve instant relief. So instead of calling a million times (which is sadly what I want to do right now) I thought I would send my apology into the world of blogging and give my loved one the space that they deserve.
I screwed up. I made a mistake, and I know that it will get better. Patience. Patience. Peace will come.
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13 years ago
1 comments:
June 21, 2008 at 1:06 AM
I am in this same situation as you, i have been really stressed out and have been lashing out at the ones i love, i dont even realize that i have been doing it until its already done, then i feel like total crap afterwards.
I think what we need is to just take a time out. 5 or 10 minutes to just sit and breathe and really try to clear our minds, maybe counting our blessings until we forget all about the negative that we have been acting on towards other people.
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