Healthy Holidays

I'm thinking ahead to the holidays. I love the holidays!!! I'm already pretty stressed about it this year though. Everything is different this year, everything is new. Have I mentioned yet how difficult change is for me? Holidays are a time for family and at this moment I feel like my family has stretched into so many different directions that I don't even know how to begin to handle it all. There is structure and safety, the familiar, the new, and then there is the wild card.

The wild card in my life is what I am having the most difficulty with right now. I just got off of the phone and I really just need to grrrrr this out at the moment.

I need to do the best thing for me during the holidays and expect everyone else in my life to do the same.

That is so difficult to accept. I want so much to break myself into a million pieces so that I can be where everyone would like for me to do be. That is just insane though... right? Hah.. oh well... it is my goal to have a happy holiday season full of healthy relationships with my friends and family. I know that if I put it all under God's control it will all be taken care of. I just wish that it wasn't such a darn challenge to keep healthy boundaries!