Heart to Heart

I am learning to listen to my heart. It sounds like a pretty easy task, but it can be nearly impossible some days. When I am struggling with stress, or under pressure, all I want to do is distract myself. Distract myself from my heart in any way that I can. I probably wouldn't even have realized this if it weren't for my amazing Michael who is always wanting to know: where is my heart at?

So, I am learning to listen. I listen and I push away all of those distractions away... and by doing that I am able to have an amazing connection with God and the people that I love. The best way for me to start is by reading the Word of God and praying. It is amazing what a difference this can make in my world. I am so excited about being able to be open and honest with myself, and the people around me.

Naturally, my heart a lot of times can be filled with junk. When I am able to express that though, to talk about it, and lay it at the feet of God. Wow... the junk is able to get cleared out... and I feel SO much better. It can be really difficult to start, but when it happens it is absolutely phenomenal. I have been so blessed to find a man that loves me enough to go through this process with me. One of my favorite things about love, is how it makes us want to be better people, because we know that the people we love deserve our very very best.

Have you listened to your heart today???

San Francisco

In celebration of Christian's birthday we went to San Francisco for a Giants game. We had a BLAST!!! It was so nice to get out of town and chill out. We experienced some grumpiness... and I ended up with a few headaches along the way, but over-all we could not have possibly had a better time. There were just soooo many experiences for us.I was so blessed that Michael came with us. It is amazing how much more complete our family feels when he is with us. I love him so much!! He and I learned a lot about each other this weekend. Traveling has a way of doing that to people. The good, the bad, and yes most definately the ugly all seem to make their appearance when we leave the routine we are used to at home.

Cam Cam the Fabulous Disco Queen

Jazz

I have been listening to jazz tonight. I love the old classics: Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, Louis Armstrong. They always hold a very special place in my heart. I have been listening to this music while I have been attempting to allow myself to dream about the future. Not the easiest thing in my world of deep rooted realities and responsibilities, but I am trying just the same.

The music lifts me up and takes me to a place that I wouldn't have been able to get to otherwise. I can dream. I can lift my head and focus on the stars for just a little while. Romantic, isn't it?

Michael took the kids and I to the park earlier tonight and I just thought I would share a picture of all of my adorable darlings.

Groceries

I would just like to say that I HATE grocery shopping. I just got done with a lovely experience shopping, bagging, loading, unloading, unbagging, putting away and organizing groceries. If it weren't for Michael's help I probably would have given up a while ago. Did I mention yet how much I love that man? I do. I do!

K... well I think I am going to go to bed now. I'm exhausted.

Wisdom

Ah yes... and I really recommend that everyone check out my Dad's blog. He posted a blog with my late Papa's business wisdom. My Papa was an amazing man that was greatly admired by everyone that met him. If you have any personal wisdom of your own... I really recommend that you take the time to check it out!

Forgiveness

It is so easy for me to speak forgiveness. Not so easy for me to let go and truly forgive. At least not without truly dealing with my pain and hurt.

I'm learning and yes it is tough.

I've realized that if I don't face these areas that I have held onto for so long... I will never be able to truly trust the people around me. I don't want for anger and bitterness to randomly pop up in my life. I need to be able to show love to everyone, everywhere, always. That is my desire. I don't want to get caught up in my head, evaluating situations and people to make sure that they are safe. I want to jump in and trust that God is going to take care of me.

We are all born with a sense of justice. We all want for things to be fair and for those who wrong us to be punished for what they have done. It's good to want justice. God instilled that into all of us for a reason. I am learning grace though. In order to receive God's grace in my life, I desire to share that same grace with everyone else.

Fantastic.

Well... I am going to end this by sharing a picture of me in my new office. We are officially in our new building and as you can tell... I am thrilled!!!! God is doing great things in my life!!! I am so grateful for all of the blessings he has been pouring down.